Monday, January 30, 2012

reading up on the subconscious

i'd been reading loads of stuff about the subconscious, preconcconsious, consciousness, unconcsciousness etc etc. it got real confusing and i was trying to take too much in without knowing anything beforehand. i had a long debate with my friends about the subconsious that night and was getting proper stressed about life and what was conscious and what wasn't.

i wrote my ramblings; (without consciously stopping and thinking about what i was writing)

"what does the subconscious hold, is dreaming a place where your subconscious over takes your conconsciousness. lucid dreaming becomes a merging of both"

"the subconscious already knows what you do, it sees, hears, feels, remembers, what nature/ life truely is. Its true future; your protection, your guide. It dictates your fate, feeelings, personality and scepticsm"

"embracing your subconscious allows you to see what is unseeable. It shows a side to reality that is more knowledgable, itelligent than your conscious self"

"consciously saying is subconsciously speaking"

"i'm consciously thinking of my subconscious, which is impossible, as the subconsicous is not meant to be consciously understood, but instead felt."

"true originality is without thought it is felt. its your subconsious breath"

after a long depressing talk. i had my appifinay. i didn't need to think so deeply for that was having negative effects on my thoughts. to be creattive is to be free, clear of mind and content; with the present and what the futute holds. trying to consciously write words and develop ideas begins to restrict creative flow. it creates subconscious boundaries in your thinking thereby distracting you from true creativity. By entereing the creative zone, your body ignores the unessecarry occurences of life and consolidates its creativeness to your hands.

right after all this thinking and non thinking i took a walk. i swaer when you walk, your body concentrates on walking and thinking becomes clearer. it lets me appreciate the world.

had a ridiculous car journey

as we drove home we were listening to some weird songs, classical fm came on. we thought the song had ended but quiet bass strings appeared and the music started to narrate every part of our journey. we began in wooded area along a country road the music was loud energetic, came to a roundabout with civilisation, music calmed down and became gracefull with the curves of the roundabout and roads. we sweareved with the music and it would fluctuate as we went over hills and got tense aorund sharp corners. it rose up when an on coming car appeared and got excitable once we'd passed. then a short soft part as we got to moulds home and to traffic lights. but as we realized mould was going to have to drop everyone off the music become more abrupt and chaotic; we look over to see a police car parked at the lights. danger in the music. it settles down once we pass and are we are relieved as is the music. short bursts of strings coincide with the bumps on the road and as we pull in to drop rorie home the music perfectly stops as we get outside his house. musical journey over.

ive checked the list of music on the classic fm website and none of the songs have the same vibe. maybe it was meant to be that it could not be found.

Programme Playlistfor Nick Bailey

Time Played on Mon 30th Jan 2012Track Information
00:00info
Symphony No.5 in E minor Opus 64 (2), by Peter Ilich Tchaikovsky
Composer:
Tchaikovsky, Peter Ilich
Conductor:
Tugan Sokhiev
Ensemble:
Orchestre National du Capitole de Toulouse
Record Label:
Naive
Catalog:
V 5252
00:00info
Violin Concerto in F major (2), by Thomas Linley
Composer:
Linley, Thomas II (1756-1778 : England)
Soloist:
Elizabeth Wallfisch
Conductor:
Peter Holman
Ensemble:
Parley of Instruments
Record Label:
Hyperion
Catalog:
CDH 55260
00:14info
Piano Concerto in F (2), by George Gershwin
Composer:
Gershwin, George (1898-1937 : U.S.A)
Soloist:
Garrick Ohlsson
Conductor:
Michael Tilson Thomas
Ensemble:
San Francisco Symphony Orchestra
Record Label:
RCA
Catalog:
09026 689312
00:28info
Symphony No.3 in Eb major Opus 91 (3), by Robert Schumann
Composer:
Schumann, Robert
Conductor:
Sakari Oramo
Ensemble:
Royal Stockholm Philharmonic Orchestra
Record Label:
Sony Classical
Catalog:
8869 7646872
00:34info
Mandolin Concerto in Eb major (2), by Giovanni Paisiello



Tchaikovsky: Symphony #5 In E Minor, Op. 64 - 2. Andante Cantabile, Con Alcuna Licenza


Symphony No.5 in E Minor Op.64 - Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky - Houston Youth Symphony